I wanted to write this somewhere.... may be to look back at what has happened to me...
It is something usual for me losing!!!
This is aint a sweet little story where you can cherish for a longer time...
I was totally flabbergasted.... on the recent appraisal..
Lot of things where running in my mind... wy me?? After showing so much of what is needed of someone. I cannot understand wy i stood last...
I was running from pillar to post to get things done.
I skipped lunch,breakfast... sometime it is cruel to do work even after an accident... i dint complain.. one day i had to wear a handkerchief mask on my face as i was week in fever to finish things up....
I AM THE SCAPEGOAT... (Ugly isnt it??)
I dont understand....
when people say you are crucial.. that should reflect in the papers
Feeling cornered... Nothing works out for me (It is official Now)
Is there a way to stop bemoaning on things which has happened??
Philosophy... ??? A Big No...
Let me narrate...
It is a cruel world we are living in... 2011.. A year, i can well remember for nothing...
May be ill tell the last the 6 months... I was excited to know that i was selected for the project... after a round of interview... And am gonna work on my favorite subject Procurement... Thanks to the manager who gave me the opportunity.. I still say to everyone around me.. That's cool!!!!
Well as a new bee to the project... With eyes flashing on you.. Not the Shutterbugs!!!
I can see peoples faces with load of guesses... Is this guy this that... i was at the same hysteria... but excited to meet new people.. faces...
It was a very small segregated bay(As people call it). i will come to people around in my next blog!!!
I received quite a bit of Knowledge transfer.. things were going good... I was performing ok ok kind off... (I wanted to push more)
Then came my favorite part SRM... i was excited to handle things and i wanted to give it all...
(Boring to read right!!!) me too:(
Hmmm... I worked so hard that no one could complain.. and i ended up winning it!!
There were loads of opportunities in other areas like HR.. i took things up and won more business from the client...
As it was the first time happening in the project.. I had my mouth awe at it... Great isnt it??
But things were not they way i supposed...
Everything alright..??? that should not happen right... yes these are dark words... it is the complete reflection of my situation right now...
You sacrifice everything for the work.. but you end up with nothing...
Sacrifice here i mean... friends, family.. made enemies with people around just for the sake of the project...
Finally... it ends up... fading and the feeling of victory and being appreciated for what you are still remains as a distant dream...
they kept all their career safe... i can see that.. And i am the target here to do that.. If thats the case i can very well say Good bye to the project.. i cannot be the scapegoat.. wy to put in so much??
Well to write many blogs like this... I know this world is unfair.. And i dont want to learn that again from the same people...
